Thanks to all who replied with advice and opinions
We'll see what happens on the day (fate)
I wasnt going to respond, but just to Loz 2's point about self respect and parents - as it burned me a bit.
You see I had had to really teach myself about money and try to understand credit back then, as being without family from 4yrs old and brought up on the streets of Manila (yes I was that little girl in rags at your car window with one hand out for a tip and one carrying her younger sister) I took whatever I could whenever I could.
That mentality towards taking stuck for a long time, not that I intentionally took the card or load to defraud or steal from anyone, again not that its an excuse either.
Thanks again